| 30 (January 7) |
[18 Jan 2010|08:08am] |
Well I may be one of the few, but I'm glad to be getting back to classes. Classes are a distraction
Although with OWLs coming up for us Fifth Years, this term ought to be 'interesting'. And I use that term loosely.
Was getting used to being able to sleep in though. Tomorrow morning will not be pretty.
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| 29 (December 25) |
[15 Jan 2010|05:38pm] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
Well here it is. My first Christmas alone. Well, without Mum and Dad. It's been a very quiet day. There was a dinner for the students who stayed here, but I didn't feel like going. Too much cheer. I've been sitting here by the window. Watching the tinniest of snowfalls.
Sometimes, it still hurts so much.
[end privacy charm]
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| 28 (December 19th) |
[11 Jan 2010|05:58pm] |
You say you want a revolution
It's very quiet here. Comparatively.
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| 27 (December 17th) |
[08 Jan 2010|06:17pm] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
I just realized that my birthday was three days ago.
I didn't even think of it. Not until I was looking at the calander today and then I remembered.
Not that it really matters. Sixteen, it should mean something. Except without parents to make a big deal, it doesn't mean much, does it?
[end privacy charm]
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| 26 (December 17th) |
[07 Jan 2010|04:44pm] |
After classes today, I guess it's officially the start of the Christmas holidays.
I hope everyone has a good time. Going home. Or staying here. Whatever you plan to do.
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| 25 (December 16th) |
[05 Jan 2010|06:29pm] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
The days creep ever closer to the Christmas holidays. It's hard to get into the thought of it. What with everything going on. And even if it wasn't.
They've been dead for nearly two months. It still feels too raw. Maybe it always will. Maybe you never get better.
Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
[end privacy charm]
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| 24 (December 1st) |
[01 Dec 2009|11:45am] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
For the first time in my life, I am not looking forward to Christmas.
I'll be staying here, I suppose. But I have no desire for carols and decorations and any of that. It reminds me too much of home. A home that I no longer have. Reminds me too much of... them.
I'd like to just skip past the holidays. All the way to the new year. I definitely need a new year. Can't possibly be worse than this one.
[end privacy charm]
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| 23 (October 23) |
[09 Nov 2009|12:49pm] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
I'm not sure how to go about acclimatizing myself to life again. Everyone looks at me with pity, and I understand that. I appreciate their sympathy and everything, but at the same time, sometimes I just want... a distraction from it all.
But I don't know how to feign normal anymore, to get things back to normal.
And sometimes it still hurts so much I can't breathe.
[end privacy charm]
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| 22 (October 18) |
[29 Oct 2009|07:45am] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
School seems so inconsequential now. Everything does.
They're gone. They're dead. I'm an orphan.
[end privacy charm]
[Charmed Private to Andromeda]
I'm back.
[end privacy charm]
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| 21 (October 9) |
[10 Oct 2009|02:28pm] |
I can understand why everyone feels antsy. I know the Professors are doing this to keep us safe, but I can understand the restless feeling of being cooped up.
What I wouldn't give right now for a game of football. And for everyone to calm down
Well at least by the end of this, we should all have top marks, since there's ample time for studying.
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| 20 (October 7) |
[06 Oct 2009|06:16pm] |
My poor owl nearly had a crash landing carrying the box of sweets my mum sent. She loaded the bugger down, that's for sure. Gave him quite a work out.
And now I've loads of sweets. Muggle candies! Life savers and chocolate bars and gummies all sorts of other things.
Supper? What supper?
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| 19 (October 6) |
[04 Oct 2009|09:44am] |
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I really want some bacon.
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| 18 (September 29) |
[21 Sep 2009|04:27pm] |
No. No no no no.
She cannot be dead. That's not possible fair. Not fair at all. She's fifteen years old and she... no. She's just... no.
Oh Merlin, she can't die, she just can't die
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| 17 (September 29) |
[20 Sep 2009|06:08pm] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
She's sick. She's badly sick from the sounds of it. I saw her pass out in Slug Club. And they took her away and there's nothing I can do. And others are sick as well - I was throwing up all evening but the others, they're so much worse. She has to be alright. She just has to be.
I want to go to her. I can't now, because of the restriction but after, when that's lifted... should I? Would she want that? Or would she rather I not, because people would surely notice. I would say to hell with them all, but I know she doesn't feel the same, and I have to respect her wishes.
She has to be alright. If she's not... I don't know what. I don't know what I'd do. She has to be alright.
[end privacy charm]
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| 16 (September 26) |
[14 Sep 2009|07:38am] |
[Charmed Private to Andromeda]
Are you alright?
[end privacy charm]
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| 15 (September 25) |
[12 Sep 2009|10:08am] |
Am I the only person who's not really interested in this semi-formal?
I don't think I'll be going. Or if I do, I'll be going stag.
Which was an expression I've never understood the point of, but I looked it up and apparently 'stag' used to mean 'man alone'. Hmmm.
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| 14 (September 19) |
[30 Aug 2009|10:46am] |
[Charmed Private to Self]
I don't even know what is going on anymore. Where I stand. I know where I want to stand, but this isn't just about me.
There has to be a better solution than this. Than hiding forever or... well, or nothing at all. There has to be some third option. I don't even know who to talk to about this. Andromeda is too upset. Sirius is too... well, Sirius. And I don't really want to bring other people into it, not when things are so precarious.
I have not been able to focus on anything else. I sat in Transfiguration yesterday and realized, when class was over, that I had not heard a thing. I missed the walk-out because I was just so preoccupied. I hope no one was offended.
[end privacy charm]
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| 13 (September 18) |
[28 Aug 2009|07:10pm] |
[Charmed Private to Andromeda]
Is there something you wanted to tell me? Because if you're chucking me, I'd prefer that you do it and not Lucius Malfoy.
[end privacy charm]
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| 12 (September 17) |
[27 Aug 2009|04:45pm] |
Er. Did anyone else get gold sent to them from the Head Boy and Girl? That's a bit... well, odd.
Not that I'm against getting gifts or anything, and it's a nice thought but I feel like I'm being bought off or something
At any rate, I'm out of the Infirmary, and in one piece, with a lot of stitches that will surely leave a lovely scar.
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| 11 (september 15th) |
[22 Aug 2009|01:09pm] |
Contrary to what several people have asked me, no, I am not dating Lily Evans. We went to the Ice Cream Social and the Slug Club thing as friends. Yes, friends. I know, that's shocking, isn't it?
Today I am going down to Hogsmeade where I will stock up on enough candy to last a month (and then eat it in a week), have lunch at the pub, visit the joke shop and hopefully see Andromeda, even if it's just from afar
[Charmed Private to Andromeda]
You looked beautiful yesterday. I wish I could have told you in person.
[end privacy charm]
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